34/366 : Still Falling For You

Fire and ice
This love is like fire and ice
This love is like rain and blue skies
This love is like sun on the rise
This love got me rolling the dice
Don’t let me lose
Still falling for you
Still falling for you

Beautiful mind
Your heart got a story with mine
Your heart got me hurting at times
Your heart gave me new kind of highs
Your heart got me feeling so fine
So what to do
Still falling for you
Still falling for you

It took us a while
With every breath a new day
With love on the line
We’ve had our share of mistakes
But all your flaws and scars are mine
Still falling for you
Still falling for you

And just like that
All I breathe
All I feel
You are all for me
I’m in
And just like that
All I breathe
All I feel
You are all for me
No one can lift me, catch me the way that you do
I’m still falling for you

Brighter than gold
This love shining brighter than gold
This love is like letters in bold
This love is like out of control
This love is never growing old
You make it new
Still falling for you
Still falling for you

It took us a while
Because we were young and unsure
With love on the line
What if we both would need more
But all your flaws and scars are mine
Still falling for you
Still falling for you
Still falling for you

And just like that
All I breathe
All I feel
You are all for me
I’m in
And just like that
All I breathe
All I feel
You are all for me
No one can lift me, catch me the way that you do
I’m still falling for you

Falling, crash into my arms
Love you like this
Like a first kiss
Never let go
Falling, crash into my arms
Never breaking what we got
Still falling for you
Still falling for…

And just like that
All I breathe
All I feel
You are all for me
I’m in
And just like that
All I breathe
All I feel
You are all for me
All for me

And just like that
All I feel is you
All I feel is you
You are all for me
I’m still falling…
And just like that
All I feel is you
All I feel is you
You are all for me
No one can lift me, catch me the way that you do
I’m still falling for you

Ellie Goulding | Still Falling For You

Happy 7th Anniversary. My roommate, my lunch date, my half, my joker of the day, my karaoke companion. You are Virgo and I am Gemini, we are a love-hate crony. Thank you for wonderful ever 7 years journey and more journey years ahead. Love you, and I will always falling for you.

33/366 : #MusicMonday Coldplay – Fix You

Today is Fix You birthday. First out as a single on 2005 and then included in Coldplay third album, XY. This song reqularly comforted me in my-every-broken-heart moment for years. And I posted in my blog several times as many as I quoted the lyric to calm my shatered mind. Neverless, the album was the best album ever to sing with teary eyes.

Happy Birthday Fix You. May this song will always give me strength.

High up above or down below
When you’re too in love to let it go
But if you never try you’ll never know
Just what you’re worth

Coldplay | Fix You –

It is Monday and I am feeling blue.

22/366 : 42

I think my heart broken into pieces. Scrolled down my pages. The news gave me more and more bad news than gave me a good one. I realise know, why there were a fiction superhero. It surely because there was an anger cannot spit of from the heart, tears cannot run from the eyes and scream without voice, from ordinary person. Who needs help…and no one come, except a fiction superhero.

I wish I have a superpower. Delusion.

Those who are dead are not dead
They’re just living in my head

42 | Coldplay –

17/366 : Legenda #musicmonday

Alkisah, seorang anak perempuan tinggal di sebuah kota di utara pulau Sumatera. Tiap dua tahun sekali, dia mengalami perjalanan panjang selama tiga hari tiga malam menyusuri panjangnya pulau ini untuk mengunjungi nenek – kakek dan sanak saudaranya di pulau Jawa. Hampir 1500 km ditempuh bersama orang tua dan kedua adik laki-lakinya.

Setiap dua tahun sekali, selama perjalanan panjang itu, akan ada beberapa kaset terbaru dari penyanyi kesukaan orang tuanya yang akan diputar tak berhenti siang dan malam, sampai lirik lagu-lagunya menguasai semua ruang di kepala anak perempuan ini. Entah karena lagu-lagu penyanyi ini begitu indah liriknya (dan ternyata diperuntukan untuk dewasa) atau memang karena lagunya sudah tersimpan di memori si anak, penyanyi ini juga menjadi favoritnya. Bertahun-tahun kemudian, hanya kaset-kaset dari penyanyi ini yang dibawanya pindah ke pulau sebrang dan ke kota tempat dia menimba ilmu.

Hingga suatu saat, si anak perempuan mempunyai uang sendiri untuk menonton konser si penyayi. Sayangnya, hari yang ditunggu, sang anak tidak bisa ke ibukota karena ujian semester yang tidak bisa ditinggalkan keesokan harinya.

Sampai akhirnya sang penyanyi meninggal dunia, sang anak tak pernah menyaksikan penampilan sang penyanyi secara langsung dan menjadi salah satu penyesalan terdalam dalam hidupnya.

Disaat sang anak merantau, lagu-lagu penyanyi inilah yang menemaninya mengingat perjalanan panjang dari Medan ke Lumajang, melewati Pekanbaru, Jambi, Prabumulih, menyebrangi selat Sunda dan tiba di tanah Jawa, lalu menyusuri kota-kota pantai utara Jawa sebelum tiba disebuah desa kecil, Grati.

Selamat Hari Musik Nasional, Legenda Indonesia, Chrisye. Terima kasih telah menjadi teman menjalani hari-hari diperjalanan.

ps. ternyata ini hari Selasa, takpalahya telat sehari.

15/366 : Breathe

After all, I need to take deep breath. To calm down my hurt feeling, my anger. Breathe.

Take a deep breath
So that either side of your heart becomes numb
Exhale one more time

Until you feel the slightest of pain
It’s alright if you feel so full of air
That you feel
Nothing’s left inside you any more
No one’s blaming you
It’s alright to make mistake sometimes
It happens to the best of us

The words, “it’s okay”
They may be nothing but words
But isn’t there a way that I can
Do something about

Somebody sigh
The deep breath of sorrow
I can’t understand your innermost thoughts
But it’s okay
I’ll take you into my embrace

To others, your sigh may seem like one of tiredness
but I know
That you spent an entire day
So difficult that the smallest breath is hard to breathe.
Don’t think of that any longer
Take a deep breath

But isn’t there a way that I can
Do something about
Somebody’s sigh
That deep breath sorrow I can’t understand your innermost thoughts
But it’s okay
I’ll take you into my embrace
You’ve done so well

Breathe | Lee Hi –
Trans ikonOT7 via ladymichi90
MV is here

ps. Thank you to Lee Hi for comforting me with this beautiful song and lyric by Kim Jonghyun

11/366 : February Music List and #musicmonday : Kings of Convenience

Made a big decision this month after a long thought, had sleepless nights and mental-physically drained. So this month was quite nostalgic for me. I kept playing my old playlist. I think my brain had memory in pain and hurt that happen that years and easily pampered by these songs.

only someone
who’s morally
superior can possibly
and honestly deserve
to rule my world

explain to me one more time
when they kill it’s a crime
when you kill it is justice

Rule my Worlds | Kings of Convenience –

Failure is always the best way to learn,
retracing your steps untill you know,
have no fear your wounds will heal.

Failure| Kings of Convenience –

Dreams burn, but in ashes are gold

24-25 | Kings of Convenience –

ps. Try to write #musicmonday regularly, inspired by Dita.

7/366 : Coldplay

  

Tiap kali isi kepala ini sudah bertumpuk-tumpuk tidak ada aturannya, maka satu-satunya yang bisa mengurai adalah lagu-lagu milik Coldplay. Entah apa yang mereka sisipkan dalam alunan melodinya, yang pasti mengurai rumitnya isi kepala. 

Lalu gw mulai mengeluhkan betapa musik mereka ini selalu punya mood yang berbeda. Betapa terganggunya gw dengan melodi-melodi mereka yang eksperimental dan betapa gw nyaman memejamkan mata saat lirik lagunya menyayat hati dengan melodi yang membuat air mata gw mengalir begitu saja. 

Lalu memori gw yang menghilang pasca melahirkan seperti kembali bersama lagu-lagu mereka. 

Memori.

Hormon. 

#nowplaying : Us Against the World